GIVING UP THE PAST...

2009-10-09T19:02:00.002+08:00

why people just want to quarrel because of money issue?
why people just want to worry for not enough money?
although money is an essential element that we, human, needs,but cant we just don't keep worrying for money, and worst, even fight over money.
why?
just now on bus, i saw a woman quarrel on phone on money issue.
you may say that to me money is easily get from my parents.
on the other hand, when i do not have any money left, i wont sit there for money.
but instead, think of some ideas to achieve what we want and also what we need.
moreover, when i have money, i will just spend whatever i have.
if there is not, i will resist to the temptation to buy things and just don't even go think about it.
to think repeatedly, will only affect our wonderful mood that we have.
you may say that i very spendthrift.
but to think from my view,
isn't it another ways to enjoy my life?
anyway, i wonder who can be able to answer all my why?

2009-10-01T18:13:00.002+08:00

sorry if i have make you unhappy these few days,but i seriously hope that i won't affect your mood in studies.remember your target!ok?another thing is that i feel that you are sort of avoiding me these few days and i finally know the reasons behind it.i was actually thinking that if we talk everyday,we wont be nelecting our friendship.but many perception seems wrong.anyway,you also teach me a new thing for this thing.i learn not to talk to each other too often.i have learnt from my mistake,can you dun give me a cold shoulder anymore??i hope that after you read this post,you can understand what i feel.and i also feel that there are things bothering you but i seriously cant figure out.but i hope you can share with me if there is any.

2009-09-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

wish you get well soon!!!
drink more water horh!!!
rest well,its ok if you cant talk to me.
i will try to find something to do.
dun worry about me.
im always strong and alright...

2009-09-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

i cant afford to lose things around me...
i afraid that kind of feeling...

2009-09-19T13:53:00.002+08:00

i don't know why.
i don't why i have such a weird feeling when weekend start.
that feeling is like very empty.
maybe don't what to do.
yesterday when i was taking 88 home,
i feel that i hate weekend.
hate that feeling.
don't wish to have saturday and sunday.
i currently having very terrible time.
how i wish that time can go back when happy time that i have.
without the contentment,i feel weird.

2009-09-02T17:21:00.000+08:00

full of disappointment...

just now when i took 89 back home,many many things come to my mind.
maybe i think too much.
but i just hope that it wont affect me much.
the kind of feeling is so difficult to explain and to describe.

2009-08-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

can you dont treat me like this?
i dont want that kind of feeling...
i have lots of things to say but just cant use words to express out.
i dont know why.

2009-08-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

are you avoiding me or something?
millimetre to cetimetre to metre to kilometre...

2009-07-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

SORRY!
MY FAULT...

2009-07-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

WHY YOU BECOME LIKE THIS?
ARE YOU THINKING THAT I COMPARE YOU WITH THE PAST?
THE ANSWER IS NO...
I JUST DO NOT WANT YOU TO FEEL THAT I NOT GIVING YOU ANY RIGHT YOU SUPPOSES TO HAVE.
CAN YOU NOT TREAT YOU LIKE THIS?
TODAY ALSO YOUR FIRST TIME SHOUT AT ME.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I DO???
CAN I KNOW?
HOPE THAT YOU WILL NOT AFFECT TMR.
HOPE.......

2009-07-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

HOPE TO LET GO THE PAST...(its difficult to find a person to motivate me, and back to where i am)

2009-07-15T16:15:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER 15 JULY...

2009-07-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

THANKS FOR YOUR TIME...
as 15 july will not be there anymore.
answers have been out.
piece of glass shattered on the ground,
piece of me represents me.
broken into pieces,
which cannot be back to the original shape.
joy may not exist anyhow.
actually i knew the results will be that since few weeks ago,
but chose to forget it.
because i always hoping that miracles will happen.
but this word may not even suit me.
its tough to continue the journey now.
eternal future without direction...
souls have been flow away,
going to dark place,
where cannot be found and in the dark dark corner.

15 july is not my day for every year.
unhappiness always fall on that day.
or even so,
if it related to it will always be pieces of shit for me.

2009-06-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

why people do not feel the urgency in them?
why not???
can anyone answer me this question?
when you are keep calling people to study and they dont want, why do i feel there is an anger that cannot be describle???
sometimes i feel like vent all my anger out at people who dont study, but i do not want friendship to end because such things happen.
i do not want to see friends to be disappointed because of results.
can anyone tell me what to do?????

2009-06-26T11:23:00.001+08:00

"NUMB"

2009-06-19T23:49:00.003+08:00

once things happened,there would not be any turn back or rewinding back.
THINGS HAPPENED MEANS HAPPENED ALREADY.
THINGS SAID OUT ALREADY, CANNOT BE TAKEN BACK.
RESPECTING EVERYONE DECISION.
the one and only solution is only to continue with life like what supposed to be...

2009-06-16T08:23:00.002+08:00

just woke up...
felt everthing happened yesterday was like a series of dreams.
things happened yesterday was just so unbelievable!

2009-06-11T21:08:00.003+08:00

Parents asked me," why am i seeing you not studying last few days?"

i couldnt say anything.
maybe because i very tired and give up on studies.
i just don't have the motivation to study when i kept calling people to study.
its just annoying.
i have lots and lots of things to say out.
but just dun know how to say...

2009-06-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

ONE week of holiday have past....

2009-05-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

FEELING VERY TIRED...

2009-05-29T20:29:00.002+08:00

CAN ANYONE KNOW HOW I HAVE BEEN FEELING THESE FEW DAYS?

(DUN THINK ANYONE KNOW...DIDNT TELL ANYONE EVEN THOSE WHO ARE VERY CLOSE TO ME.)

2009-05-10T22:29:00.003+08:00

many times people take things for granted.they dont cherish things around them till they realised its too late.but then,there's no point crying over spilt milk anymore.cherish whatever you have now and not regret it in the future.
this is my last year in my secondary school.about six months time,we will be taking our o level.i will miss the fun in our class,going recess together with my friends and studying together after school together.
so why not lets cherish our last few month in the school?

2009-05-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

exams are drawing near.i am unprepare yet.i have took my ss paper.leaving 3 question undone, the max mark can get only 31/50.totally suck.dun know why???my mood these few days is up and down.bringing my mood into the exam, i doubt i can score well.nvm.its alright anyway.

2009-04-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2009-04-19T11:51:00.004+08:00

after experiencing a very stressful week,i think that next week is going to a relax one,hopefully.anyway got back my amath test,was rather disappointed with it and not up to my standard.next week is going to be my last time going for my cca as i'm going to step down soon.and guess what!?i will be available on Friday already and its one of my dream which lasted these four years.tmr going to get back my emath test,getting nervous.and hope that the result is up to my satisfaction...anyway gtg,bye.

"It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, "Always do what you are afraid to do."Ralph Waldo Emerson

2009-03-28T18:33:00.004+08:00

speech day finally end last night:)

so what does that mean?

i means that we are going to step down soon!

however,its a bit sad.

because my cca gave me a lot of memorable memories and i know more ppl in my cca too.

guess what!?

its now less than 7 months to our english paper 1 and 2.

which means that i have 1 month to study one subject.

its like wow!!!

but who cares?!

life is not just about studies...

there are elements that give us a unforgettable time.

one of them is fun:)

anyway,that is the picture when i went to play bowling with my study group:)

i gtg.

bye.

2009-03-19T13:53:00.003+08:00

hi everyone!
im just back from somewhere...(r u curious?haha!!)
well,i finally finish my first holiday asignment.
its chemistry!
i think i have nothing to post already!?
bye...

2009-03-16T18:06:00.002+08:00

i currently sick...
having high fever,flu,cough and lots of illness.
im so worried about my study because i have not been studying and doing h/w since last friday.
talking about last friday,
i got back my report book.
the results was so horrible that i couldn't controlled my emotion.
im now already sec4 and i think i have been slacking.
maybe i deserve that kind of stupid resultss...

2009-03-05T20:46:00.002+08:00

hey everyone!
CT are all over:)
wonderful right?
however....
the sad thing are that my result are not those i expected.
especially my geo and chem:(
feeling abit sad about it.
but...it will be alright after a while.

bye!
-justin-

2009-02-21T13:30:00.001+08:00

i think i need to stop studying math for sometime...
and next week is my common test.
it will be a stressful week:(
well!
just endure for that week:)

2009-02-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

hi!
have leading my wonderful part of my life:)
these few weeks i have been studying in school till very late.
and can be as late as 0730pm++
dun know why???
i can only study in school when im at home,
i dun feel like studying...
but who cares!?
as long as i can study,
its ok for me to study anyway:)
anyway thats all!
byeesssss

2009-02-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

it was still quite wonderful time for these few days:)
wonderful time with study?
haha:)
today i just got back my chemistry mole test...
its was quite a ok mark for me.
i think?
i got like 23/30!
after something happened today in class,
i will help double for my Os for the rest of the year.
esp combined hum:)
anyway i going to study already?
byebye

2009-01-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

hi everyone!
guess wat!?
YUYING SECONDARY SCHOOL 4A'09 has just created a blog:)
all thanks to edison,hui ning and meryl^^
4A'09 is the most wonderful class...

the link to the blog is below:
http://www.mothertan.blogspot.com/

thats all for today.
bye:)

2009-01-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to JUSTIN TAN YU KAI:)
i have turned 16 today...
finally can go play pool already.
it is my best birthday celebration ever:)
thanks 4A'09 and jia yu for the presents and the cake.
haha!
i really enjoy it.thanks.
guess wat!?
yesterday was wen an's birthday and tmr will be hui ning birthday:)
anyway thats all for today.

2009-01-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

i got my o level Chinese result already.
it was so lousy,bad and whatever word that can describe lousy.
i only got a B3 for it.
but i decide to remain in higher chinese.
because i really need higher chinese.
guess wat now?!
only left 4 singapore students including me in the class.
and we are studing with 8 oversea students.
its like so wow!
the class's environment is so dead...
i had to forget my lousy chinese result and focus on all my other subjects:)
now is working hard on english,physics and chem.
WORK HARD!!!
anyway there is nothing to post already.
bye everyone...

2009-01-11T08:52:00.002+08:00

Don't know why i woke up so early today:)
but tmr i will be getting be O level chinese result.
i now is like so damn nervous la!
HOPE that i can get either A1 or A2.
i shall end here.
bye!

2008-12-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

i dun know why i felt this way.
when i wanted to chat with you,
i suddenly felt very down.
when you said this way, "right.okay.if u have something to say then just say."
i felt like...
but i try my best to tell myself that nothing happened.
maybe i cant settle down.
i need some time to do so...

2008-12-26T19:49:00.003+08:00

school going to reopen soon.
it just only left one weeek!
time goes so fast la.
how i wish time can go back or slow down.
let me enjoy my life.
i wish that time can go back to when im sec 1.
when i can play all i want.
guess wat!?
its my last year in yuying.
time really goes fast.
in less than one year,
i will be taking my o level.
just now when playing soccer,kelly and varian mentioned when im sec 2.
the "Shar" and me.
it makes me remember the happy moment we have been through.
but now we both like stranger like this.
so wat if she online,
she is busy.
cant even chat.
but never mind.
happy moment are in front of us,
i must walk forward and enjoy it.

2008-12-26T19:37:00.003+08:00

today morning went back school to do something for first day of school.
then finished very fast.
then we clear up the prefect room.
alot of things were threw away.
now the prefect room looks much better:)
then after that we went to heartland to buy soccer ball.
afternoon was soccer time...
the ball was like so damn hard la.
i took sometime to adapt the playing style with the ball.
i injuried my foot but i didnt tell anyone.
after played until like so bloody tired.
we went to mcdonald to eat something.
halfway in the mcdonald,
my right leg suddenly cramped.
it was like so pain la.
it took quite some time for it to gone.
the fun part was at the back part.
me zhao yuan jocelin aaron hisyam went to arcade to play our favourite game.
"DAYTONA"!
first match,i played with jocelin and zhao yuan.
i win:)
then the second match i played was with zhao yuan and hisyam.
i won zhao yuan by 0.01s!
so damn lucky la.
but the game was quite expensive.
cost me $2 for two games.
then after that home sweet home:)

2008-12-25T21:25:00.002+08:00

merry christmas to everyone:)
today is a interesting but a tiring day...
first,in the morning,
meet up hong ying,joanne,kelly and varian at seng kang mrt station.
but i arrived early.
so went to arcade to kill my boreness.(notice that i have been kept playing arcade these while)
then hong ying arrived and she came to arcade.
then after playing,went to the mrt there and waited for joanne,varan and kelly.
and guess wat!?
varian and kelly is the latest.
then we trained to orchard to have pepper lunch.
then walked to orchard point because hong ying want to give something to benson.
after that kellly said he want to go vivo city then we went there and met up with jun jian.
then kelly kept saying he want to go to the water playground.
walking rounds and rounds in the vivo city is my first time
and its very tiring you know???
and we trained to hougang mall.
varian and kelly have something on
so they left.
then only left hong ying joanne jun jian and me.
so we go ate la mian.
its like so bloody damn full la.
then i and jun jan took 89.
because both of us stay in pasir ris.
there are still more fun part when we are out
but there would be like damn much.
plus i feeling very tired.
so...you know wat i meant right?
shall end here:)
byebye...

2008-12-24T19:18:00.005+08:00

sometimes i feel that be like wen an who dun care about relationship is the best...
because he have nothing to worry and sad about.
i feel very tired already.
how i wish time can stop and let me have peace and rest...
to her:still remember last year christmas?its ok that we didint go out at least we had the chance of chatting.but this year?we cant even talk anymore.why things turn out to be like this?i cant get it......

2008-12-24T11:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday was a very wonderful day.
in the morning,
i went back help to do the notice board for india trip which outside the math room.
after that,
i train to piaza sing.
when i reach here,i call zy.
then he said they were at park mall which i dun know where?
then i went to arcade myself and started to played non-play.
i spent quite alot of money there...
and now is like half-broke already!?
when playing half-way,i met stephen in the arcade too.
we played for a a while and went to carefour.
i bought LAYS and a bottle of 1.5 litre of strawberry 7UP.
then we headed to golden village and wait for zy they'll.
we watched "twlight" but NO subtitle.
i tried to get wat they saying but sometime just cant.
after watching movie,we cannot decide where to go.
but in the end we went to zone X.
we like kept playing daytona.
it was very fun.
after fun time over,
i went home and the rest went to eat their dinner.
why time must goes so fast?
how i wish time can slow down...
haiya.
school reopening soon.
like wat mr chia said.
our enemy in studies is not top students
is OURSELVES!
we must overcome our personal problem.
i will remember it:)
byebye

to her:wish you merry christmas in advance.my wish for you is not to be so busy.it is not a good thing for you to do.i have also experience like you before.i was once very busy but in the end my result drop alot alot.trust me...

2008-12-22T21:31:00.004+08:00

today i had my amath tuition.
only me and the other guy who i dun really know me turn up for the lesson.
then the teacher was like damn angry.
she said that we are taking o level next year and yet that we are skipping lesson(not including me, i always turn up for lesson)
then she also said that if next year we not coming for lesson,we must produce parents letter or MC.if not she not going to have make-up lesson for those who are not coming.
but too bad.
this does not goes to me.
because i always turn up for lesson.
im a good students:)
i dun skip lessons even it is not a important lssson.
hope that i can do well for my both math for all the test or exam:)
tmr is the prefect outing but the sad part is that i can only watch movie with them and cannot play bowling.
because i had some stuff in the morning.
but never mind.
shall end here.
bye...

2008-12-19T21:01:00.002+08:00

its a tiring day today.
firstly,morning had the sec1 registration
i was like running around and saying the same things la.
so tiring
haiss...
after had lunch,
SOCCER TIME!
having fun time playing amd it adds on to my tireness in the morning.
now im feeeling so lazy and i haven even done my amth tuition h/w yet.
but who cares!?
only get scolding only
the most call me stay after class to finish only.
shall end here!

2008-12-18T07:53:00.003+08:00

back from camp yesterday.
it was like damn tiring la!
but learn quite alot of things which is not in our textbooks.
learning from our mistake is the key to success.
there was one part of the camp which i feel very fun.
it was when after the campfire, NIGHTWALK.
i was in the toilet playing games and we had to clear up the mess.
and jeremy came in and i dun know wat happen.
he and zhao yuan was like dun know wat they doing.
i use the broom to sweep the water accidentally to jeremy and shout" EXCUSE ME" very loudly.
like wat cleaner outside doing when they want to mop or clean the water.
it was like so damn funny.
haha:)
32 days to NC-16.
time really goes very fast.
shall end here.

2008-12-15T21:42:00.002+08:00

today i bought a new shoe:)
its a converse shoe.quite nice.
tmr i having SL camp,
so cant post anything.
wish that my councillors and i can faster finish up our "welcome back school " banner...
councillors, your'll can do it, as long as we works toward our aim of the day tmr:)
shall end here for today!

2008-12-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

what a wonderful day today:)
i went to bugis street to buy my new year clothes
and follow next i went to chinatown...
i bought a thing i always wish for???
which is the electronic dictionary that can help me in my english
hopefully?
i can also learn other languages from that dictionary too.
talking about other language
my favourite foreign language is Japanese
i feel that the way the japanese speak japanese is really damn cool la
shall end here...

to sharmaine: maybe we can just only be friends...and i now agree that let be friends.ok?i wish you will be pay off for your hard work this holiday:)

2008-12-13T22:38:00.002+08:00

20days to school reopen...
37days to my birthday...
when school reopen,i will work extremely hard than sec3 for my studies...
because i want to apply direct school admission to my dream school,
which is st. andrew junior college!!!
i will work hard!!!
especially for english!
"STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD"
this will be always in my mind for this year...

2008-11-22T17:04:00.002+08:00

well,just come back from india.i really enjoy the time there with my friends.we had a fun time there.i still have serveral group with my friends in friendster.if you intestered, you may take a look there.

2008-10-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

tmr is my last day of eoy which is chemistry.

lets start with my language paper 1.
eng compo was quite ok but letter i think cannot make it.
chinese...
i had a hard time doing it,plus the weather was so hot that i cant concentrate on it.
hope i will not B for my chinese.
next is emath paper 1.
it was ok.
hopefully i can get 90 plus for it which i think i haven get it once.
but i know i have wok hard for it...

social study...
it is a very scary subject for me.
must remember alot of things.
its like so difficult for me who something have stm!

amath:)
i like it.
because i have work hard for it also.
hopefully i can get my 80 plus for this time.
i want to prove that if i really determine to study for it,i can make it.
and this period of time since after sept holiday, i have been keep studying my both math and forget about other subjects.
but i got concentrate during other period subject so i think i can remember.

english paper 2.......
my class got quite a few ppl said difficult but i somehow agree.
is the part that how to answer it is difficult.
other i all understand.
i hope that pass my english and must pass!
if not...
something will happened to me during holiday.

physics...
at first i thought that teacher will give more question for thermal physics because it is recently taught.
but very little question came out for it.
and i was very delighted and can finish the whole paper.

emath paper2...
the question all very easy.
but must do alot of working and it have alot of parts to the question.
i was feeling very irritate.
i feel like tearing the paper.
but i manage to finish it 15 min just before the paper end.
guess wat!?
i actually used 1 hour on first three question.
i thought i cant finish it.
luckily i behind faster do.

today...
chinese paper2 which is like i dun have any mood to do it.
because of the hot weather and i feel irriate while doing it.
i did not put in my best effort to do it.
i know that.
so i does not wish to get high mark for it.

tmr is chemistry which is the last paper.
hope that i will be managable.
because i want to keep my B3 record for it.

thats all...
bye:)
i dun know when i will post again...
because i will be busy with stuffs and PLAYING LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!!!

2008-07-26T07:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a tiring day.after i went home eat my dinner and watch tv for a while then i went to sleep already.i know my nyp "creative product" thing result yesterday. guess wat!?i got a A for it and another piece of news is the school selected a few sec3 for some English programme thing.i got one of them.they say we are the top few in school in the sec3.then its like $60 per hour.its klike so expensive.if we attend the whole thing, it will cost the school $1080 per person.its like so wow.i must study very hard from dun know when onward.i only know that i have enough of slacking.and its time for me to make up and strive for my CA and end of year.

2008-07-22T19:03:00.002+08:00

yo!today is tuesday.it was such a long day for me during lesson time.and thursday is my amath class test.just had my chem test yesterday.i i scare that i will fail my test.

let dont talk about this.

tmr i have physics tuition.it will be till very late.and i haven do my homework which due tmr.i think tonight i must finish it up before i can sleep.hopefully can finish it fast.

i finally know the 7 princess that some of the people know.but i will not say.you go find out yourself.hahas...

i think thats all.i better faster go do my work.bye.

2008-07-19T23:26:00.003+08:00

now i have make now my blog alive once again....
i still waiting for you...its already 369 days already...

-justin tan-